hello from the future

Uhm this is awkward but hey !!
(to anyone reading this, though I'm not sure there's actually people left in here hh)

this is literally me rn




Well I kinda get it since it's been an eternity since I posted something here. But, kids, let me tell you that this trashy blog was thriving on its era. People were dm-ing me on my other social medias just to tell me how they love my blog. I'll say that it is so sweet of them to say so, but apparently my 15yo self didn't think of it that way. I recall that I thought it was creepy and that people shouldn't be dm-ing strangers THAT casually. *whoops. The rest is history since I can barely remember whether I replied to that message or not. (my instinct telling me that there's 0.17% chance I did) RIP me and my socially-awkward-15-year-old-self. :((

Sighs. But I guess I'm getting better now. I promise if someone would ever messaged me again complimenting my blog and/or my writings I'll reply to it as sweet as possible cause I would genuinely appreciate it. Hehe so hmu, you kno ;) @fildzanabila on instagram. I won't bite, I'm just a softie bun inside who's really shy but lonely. Also if you love bts we might gonna 'click' soon.

Whew I wrote this originally just for the sake of some IT training my uni have for the freshmen but this stupid boiled egg who should'vE DONE THIS A YEAR AGO MANAGED TO MISSED IT. (& yea I'm in my 2nd year now)smh. so here I am doing this when I could've just laying in bed in m*therfucking peace. Omg I'm so mad at myself rn sorry (not sorry pls bear with me). Where was I? Yes, I originally wrote this for the sake of formality, but good fvckin news guys, I'm honestly having fun !! *insert tacky handclapping sound from power point here*

Well I've never really stopped writing tho, afterall. Even when I didn't care about this blog and all the agenda anymore, I still wrote solely for myself. But ofc the context is totally different, practically I wrote on this blog to be read by people and thus I wrote with this style. I mean you got what I mean, I'm terrible at explaining. So I am honestly diggin' this. This is fun that it makes me consider if I should continue writing on this blog and just keeping a record of my life. Maybe in the next 20 years I'll be so grateful for the me today who decided to write whatever things happened in her teenage days so that 'she' can look back and reminisce it.

Yeah, I definitely should.

Soo..., anticipate it, I guess. Eventho idk if there is a sufficient amount of human to read and to anticipate my future posts :// But yeah, also I won't be changing the layout and the design of this blog because I just want to keep it this way, for the sake of, you know, memories and ... feelings(??) and because-of-because that I used to really love this layout so let her be happy.

This isn't ending but here's some teasers /lol of some content I might write later:

-Current music playlists

-Birthday post (cs I'm turning 19 in like 2 days sigh)

-Me attempting to do make up

-Room Tour

-Current favorites

-Books and Movies

-and some more random stuff

Yeay I'm excited hopefully I'll stay committed to this /crossing fingers./ I'll see you again in the next post (well if I'm not talking to anyone then see you again, blog, in my next one.)

11.17 PM

September 1st 2018

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